TGIF!!! Is anyone else really happy it’s Friday? I sure am =)
This was my first full week back to work after our two week vacation, felt like it just took forever. As many of you know I did something completely unlike me and kind of out of my comfort zone this week. I tried a 3 day refresh/cleanse. It’s something I have always been interested in. Well a friend of mine that is a beachbody coach did it and had amazing results that packed with shakeology (which I have also wanted to try) seemed like the perfect combination for me post vacation. So while on vacation I made the purchase, so it would be at my doorstep upon our arrival home.
So this week I did it. Was it hard…..yep! Did I see results……yes! Would I do it again…….ummmmm maybe??? It was strange as during the refresh process I thought a lot about my food choices that I make and the lifestyle that I lead. I have to be honest, I make amazing food choices. I barely cheat and I run like a mad women…..seriously BUT it’s because I love running (well and food). So I thought to myself Jamie, if you already make these great choices what are you doing struggling through this cleanse??….great question.
I decided after this cleanse I need to be nicer to me, give myself a break once and awhile. I need to focus on how far I have come, as really losing 190lbs is no small feat and I should really be proud of this. While on vacation I knew I was going to gain weight, I mean come on WI is loaded with beer, cheese curds, and we all know how I love a s’more!
Before vacation and even during I couldn’t help but think of the weight, how much I would gain and how I would get it off……..seriously why?!?! I think it had to do with the gain I experienced after last year’s vacation. Last year (brace yourself) I gained 14lbs on vacation NOW let me say this……I went completely overboard. Did just have one s’more at night and call it good….more like 4! Found myself living vacation with some type of sugary food item in my hands at all times.
Well after vacation I came back and found it really hard to lose the weight I gained. Then other things came up, then the holidays…..before I know it I was gaining more ekkkkkkkkkk!! However once spring/summer started I lost all this weight and then some. It finally came off and I found myself one pound away from GOAL, ironically right before vacation this year, so I had a fear of a repeat of last year’s gains!
During this vacation I was better, kept my food somewhat under control. I also made it a goal to run at least 6-8miles a day, which I completed. I feel like my body was also in a different place this year, stronger and better. Also the usual foods I would enjoy on vacation (ice cream, brats, beer, fish fry) well they didn’t agree with my stomach, I felt miserable when I ate them. So at the end of the day yes I did gain this vacation, but I got this I have it under control.
So now that I have been all over the place you might be thinking Jamie where are you going with this?!?! Well, the truth is I probably didn’t need to have a knee jerk reaction and go on a cleanse as I really eat well and exercise my butt off (literally), and at the end of the day I need to realize something…..loses and gains ARE LIFE, it HAPPENS TO EVERYONE! I feel at times like a car on the highway that is going 90, swerving through traffic like a crazy lady to reach a destination (GOAL)! However I need to ask myself then what?????? Ok you reached your goal Jamie great (cue fireworks, confetti, bands)……now you get to maintain. Well you know what?? I bet you maintenance involves a lot of gains and losses, as LIFE HAPPENS.
So at the end of the day, I guess I would say YES I would do the refresh again. NOT because I lost 3.5 lbs, although that was a nice side effect BUT because it really put some things into perspective for me. I AM DOING FINE; I am honestly right where I am supposed to be in my weight loss journey. I need to slow the car on the highway down and enjoy the dang ride, think of how far I’ve come and the great things I have experience throughout. I just can’t continue to focus on the destination, as once I get there a whole new journey starts.
So I am making a pledge to all of you and encourage you to do the same….I Jamie Johnston will be nicer to ME, will celebrate my journey and how far I have come and enjoy the moment, I will not live for the destination……
Thanks for reading my ramblings, as I realize this post is somewhat all over the place!!!
XX,
Jamie